Week 1

HW: 187

CW (at week start): 185.47 (1.53 lb lost) 

Day 3

     Finally, a weightloss, non-super shitty day!  I did have a splurge treat today but it was still a weight loss day and I was fairly sensible the rest of the time.

•      Breakfast: A chocolate cupcake luna bar and a banana (301 calories)
•      Lunch: A giant ceasar salad with only half the dressing (roughly 400 calories)
•      Snack: Two cookie treats (I'm guessing 500 calories)
•      Dinner: Pesto fettuccine and a piece of toast. 
•      Exercise: I'm having terrible luck with these 36 minute 5 run/1 walk runs.  So this one I got to the fifth set, started wondering when I was going to walk because it was feeling like forever....and my timer had somehow reset.  Balls!!!  Ugh.  So I started up again but only ended up doing around 31.82 minutes (I think).  And if that's what I did it was at a pace of 12.93 min/mile which is my fastest pace yet.  Here's hoping.  Apparently the universe is telling me I should run my half marathon with a 4/2 alternation but we'll see.  I'm going to keep trying for now.
•      Water: At least 7 cups.  Hopefully 8 if I can get this down before it's too late.
•      Steps: 8,700+  Likely over 10,000 in actuality but I was a ding dong and forgot my fitbit most of the morning, including for when I walked around the grocery store.

 

    So, it clearly could have been a better day.  I could have used some more fruits and veggies instead of cookie treats; but, I have ice cream sitting in the fridge that I didn't touch and it was still a weight loss day.  I'll call it a win.  If I ate like this everyday I'd 4.8 pounds in five weeks or .96 pounds a week or 38.53 by the end of the year.

  
Day 2

     It's a process right?  You guess it.  Another shitty day.

•      Breakfast: 2 pieces of bacon and 2 scrambled eggs
•      Lunch: Two pieces of pizza
•      Dinner: Cheeseburger, some fries, and some onion rings.  Followed by a junior ice cream sundae I shared with the toddler.  
•      Exercise: Was supposed to do 36 minutes alternating five minutes of running and 1 of walking.  I made it halfway through no problems and then the toddler started whining, and saying the same thing over and over again.  I can only handle one form of exertion at a time (mental or physical).  So I ended up walking more than I'd liked.  Ended up going 2.6 miles for an average pace of 13.85.  Not my best but not too bad.  I don't want to risk that happening again though so hubby is going to help make sure I can run alone on weekday runs.  Plus, this way I won't have to push a 70 pound stroller.
•      Water: At least 5 cups.  Probably close to 6.  Should be more. 
•      Steps: 11,300+

     Clearly not the best day ever.  According to myfitnesspal if I ate like this everyday I'd gain four pounds in five weeks.  Yeah, I don't want to do that.  

     On the plus side, I didn't eat girl scout cookies tonight.  One of my biggest mind games I play with myself is to say "well you've already eaten like crap today, might as well finish it off with crap and start tomorrow".  It's such a toxic way of thinking.  Because if I had eaten those cookies I'd be digging myself an even bigger hole to climb out of.  And I really don't want to do that.   

 

     I need to stop giving up so easily. I can do this.  It's obviously very hard for me; but, I'm doing my best to keep going.

     If only because I went clothes shopping and I clearly either need to lose weight or buy myself new boobs because I'm so tiny on top and thick in the lower waist that nothing fits!  I cant even wear cute plus size stuff.  No clothes for me.  So clearly, I need to work on myself so that I can at least wear clothes ;)

  Day 1

     Today was...rough.  I'm still reeling from a bad day yesterday (body image-wise and otherwise) and I let it impact my day.  

•      Breakfast: Luna bar (the chocolate cupcakes ones are heavenly) and a banana.  Feeling good about this one.
•      Lunch: Two pieces of pizza and two breadsticks.  Womp, womp.  Not the best choices.  Followed it up with a mid afternoon snack of 8 Thin Mint Girl Scout cookies.
•      Dinner: Pesto fettuccine and french bread with butter.  Meh, not the healthiest.  Could have done with one slice of bread; but, I'll never beat myself up over a yummy dinner with my family. 
•      After dinner... two of what I call "cookie treats".  The grocery store makes little whip cream sandwiches with cookies.  Terrible, no good, very bad life choice.
•      Exercise: Non existent.  

     Yeah, it wasn't a good day.  It started off okay and then crashed in a fiery inferno.  I know that I can be better.  I know that I can do better.  It's time to just do it  


Note:  This post will be my running log for the week.  Each day I'll update this post with my current doings.  :)